"…feelings like disappointment, embarrassment, irritation, resentment, anger, jealousy, and fear, instead of being bad news, are actually very clear moments that teach us where it is that we’re holding back. They teach us to perk up and lean in when we feel we’d rather collapse and back away. They’re like messengers that show us, with terrifying clarity, exactly where we’re stuck. This very moment is the perfect teacher, and, lucky for us, it’s with us wherever we are."
i needed to read this to help my anxiety and fear of the unknown and the emotions that sometimes feel so powerful that i am unsure of how best to deal with them.
i am becoming more and more aware that it isnt about "dealing" with them as it is facing them and just being in that space at that moment in time.
i don't want to knee-jerk through them, i don't want to numb them, i don't want to immediately solve the issue when perhaps at this moment it can be "solved", i cannot force anyone else's emotions or thought patterns, i cannot squelch my feelings in fear of rocking the boat.
2011 is the year i stop fearing "conflict" and the feelings it can create.